I was lost by my own feelings. Feelings I haven't yet told no one. It's a feeling of a heartbreak. By you. I thought it'll be easier if I ignore you like I did at first so that I can embrace my self when you're gone. But I was wrong. I was lost. I missed you and us. You are the most important person in my world. Every chapter I involved in life, it was always you who found the escape path from my sorrow.
It hurts more knowing you don't even care. You'd never mentioned me. I leave you because I knew sooner or later it'll be you who will leave me so, my arrogant towards curing my heart strikes me to take an action. And I did. But I came back. Because without you in this world of mine, there's no me. We've been through many things. I've been through many things with you involved. And since you've been gone, I don't know what else I would do.
And there he is. I knew you left because of him and for the sake of your relationship. I love him. I changed for him. You knew that before he ever knew I love him. I kept changing myself for the sake of him. But I can't stand his attitude that is the same as yours as he asked me to forget you. I kept mentioning your name everytime we chatted. Everything I did, end up messed up because you aren't here. And for the past two weeks I suffered. Alone.
And now I have the strength to post what I felt here. Because I just jogged and I felt a little free. My life here is bored than ever. I have to leave everyone in my contact list to satisfy my love's lust. I did every command he asked for. Because losing him is much more painful since you aren't here.
I hope I succeed well in our break up. Because it hurts more than a thousand knife stabbing my chest. Because you're my bestfriend. But I believe everything that happens must be a reason.But still, this break up is the worst break up ever. EVER. I still remember our promises. I don't know if I can bare anymore pain to see you.
I'll try to act you're my sweetest memory and your presence be by gone.
