My HERO!

Since the Mcfly band exist in my life, it has never been better. I never felt alive before. My last breakup? Screw that man! I'd never felt so happy even if when I'm in a relationship! They change all in me. I swear to God. I thank to Fly.fm for being so cool and listed Mcfly's song called 'Love is on the Radio' in your top 30 because that's how I met those idiots that I'm deeply inlove with right now. At first I got a crush on Danny Jones. The one I said I want to mention him at twitter everyday till he replies. Hahahaha! But then I watched their music video called 'That's the Truth' which also my all time fav among all their song. For me, that song is the best. Anyways, as I watch it, the most perfect handsome man happens to be the main character in the video. Which is Dougie Poynter. My attention went straight away to him. Oh my god he is perfect.

As time goes by, I started to listen to my iPod everyday now, kept repeating their songs on and on. Long time ago I thought my iPod only needed to be charged only once a week but now, everyday. Every damn day it needs to be charged. I hate it. Hahahahahaha. I'm so addicted to the band. Like super freaky weird kinda addicted.




I started to see all their 'best moment' videos on Youtube. Since then, I love all of them :) Danny Jones! the silliest and happiest guy in the band. Who entertain himself by dancing and singing random songs he just heard five minutes before and his laugh is louder than my dad's. And believe me, my dad's laugh is pretty loud. Harry Judd! the best in challenges. He wins 3/4 of challenges that the band created or given to them. He is super smooth and super gay sometimes. His 'thing' is capturing Dougie's pictures while he is sleeping and hugging him when he's tired or not in the mood. Well, Dougie Poynter! My all time fav. He is the most handsome man on the band and in my heart :) Hahahaha. He is a bit shy and if the band have to choose whom among the members they'll marry, with no doubt it'll be Dougie because he is the quite one and always 'okay' with whatever the band ask him to do. Especially Harry and Danny. The mastermind of most challenges. Last but not least, Tom Fletcher! The nicest guy in the band. And he posted very enjoyable videos on Youtube and my most favorite is called 'From Bump to Buzz'. He always there for his band mates and I love the moment where he jumped onto Dougie when he won the ' I'm a Celeb, Get Me Out of Here!' tv show. The best about him is how he plays the guitar and his sweet voice.

Watching them on Youtube gives me spirit in real life. I listen to them all night before bed and sing like I'm on stage. If I watch Danny's video on how he entertain himself, it affects in my life where now I sang alot in public which I'd never done it before. I laugh alot because I fancy Danny's laughter. Watching Dougie in their music videos and his funny moments on Youtube is breathtaking. He is so addictive. He even become my boyfriend in my head. Harry's attitude makes me alive in doing things and how he talks is super sexy. Tom's videos on Youtube and watching his relationship with his wife is the sweetest thing I'd ever see. Additionally, the sweetest couple I've ever seen!

Because of them, I don't CRAVE for love that much. They filled up the empty spot in me and made me a proud single girl. I'm okay with that. Yet, I'm thankful for that. I thought, its not the time for me to fall inlove and got into a relationship. I don't want to end up fighting and breaking up as if there's nothing for me to hold on to. And I don't want to be the only one who is fighting for the relationship. It's just sucks.
I made myself a deal that I will not take a risk in taking care of a relationship. I want to be my own source of happiness, I want to take care of myself. Thats my new challenge. I hope I become like Harry so that I'll win. Hahahaha!

Well, technically I'll know I'll succeed when I'm 30 and married happily after I fulfilled my journey to my marriage life being single. Then I'll remember this guys and thank them :)
Everybody needs a hero right? Well mine is the Mcfly :)

That Moment

Everyone has that very moment where all things paused for a second. Where all emotions stop spreading but one. If it's anger or happy or lust that stood still, shining bright like a diamond. But you all must agree that, it remains for just a few minutes or even seconds. Then it's gone and forever will be.

I had my moments. My most favorite ones are the one that I met him for the first time. Where he talked to me and being so cute just to get to know me while I was then in a hurry. The way he responded towards my action made me looked back and stare at him. For the first time in months after my breakup, my heart blossom once again by just stare at his face that is full of hope for me to respond. That moment feels like forever as we chatted and I was full of joy. But the second time we'd meet, that moment was gone. You see, what makes it so beautiful is that the way he stood up to me is exactly the way I wanted to. Its like he'd paused and gaze upon me as I walked by pass him. He was so amazed and he urge to talk to me so he did. It was so beautiful I still remember how it feels like. I don't know whether my perception towards his actions are true but that is from my point of view. That's what makes it so special.

You just can't get enough. Because moments what makes you feel alive and say "hey, its breathable around here". Because moments of your life, is like a splash of paint on your canvas of life. It's clearly shown there babe...

I have a huge crush on Danny Jones and Syamsul Yussof. Both of them is my dream guy you see. What get to me this time, involved those two!!
I was working as a cashier and I had to watch over the floor as the other employees was busy unpacking and arranging stock. So there was me all alone in front of the entrance of the pharmacy, the place where I work. Out of the blue, this one guy showed up. Looked at me and starts walking away to the Jaya Grocer in front of the pharmacy. Then suddenly he stopped, he turn, he looked at me and he walked towards the pharmacy. I gave a smile so does he. I find him very attractive and it becomes an addict as he asked me a question about what medicine is best for his sore throat. I mumbled. I said "you want sweets for sore throat?" Dafuq? Hahahaha. He replied with a giggle "no, medicine would be best". I pointed at the pharmacist for him to go asked for a medicine with a blushing red starting to appear on my cheek.
Then he starts walking and leave me be. As I walked up to the cashier, I saw him starring at the supplement section. I found the urge to talked to him so I said "have you get the medicine?" "no, the pharmacist is taking a break" "Why don't you ask that girl there to give you a medicine called Mac for your sore throat" "Mac?" the way he said that.... My feet starts dancing because its wonderfully cute. "yes.." once again, with a blush on my chubby cheek.
Not long after that he went to the cashier and started asking me question while I scanned the purchases he picked cause I was too damn slow.. Well, I want to stare at him... duhhhh

   "where do you live?"
( OHH MY DEARLY BELOVED)
   "I live in Bukit Jelutong"

   "How old are you really?"
(MARRY ME PLEASE)
   "Im nineteen"

   "Whats your name?"
(FAINTED)
   " My name is Nur syafinaz"

   "Hey do you know Liesha?"
(WAIT.. WHAT??)
   " Yeahhh.. why? are you her brother?"

   "Yes I am.. Right right Syafinaz. You used to live at Jalan Adang right?"
(Awwww... He remembers who I am :'D )
   " Yes I did"

After the conversation, he paid the bills and walked away with the most honest smile. Without hesitation I called Azrah and screamed like a girl who needs help but actually she need the dude right now to say vows and get married!!!!! Firstly, he looks just like Danny Jones with an aura of Syamsul Yusoff.. Heyy dei.. That's not easy to get. That moment was the most excited moment I ever experienced in my life. Like ever! But then, it last for just about 10 minutes.

Do you believe in moments that last more than an hour or two? hahahahahahahahahhahaha no.
Well..... I do.. Because today I was on my way to the food court to print out my assignments. As I waited outside the store cause there was a lot of people inside waiting in line to print their own papers, in a glimpse, at the very end of the store, I saw him :) after two weeks not seeing each other, I saw him and my heart went down and got back up again. It was perfect. And we talked before he walks away to finish his assignments, he was so perfect, I breathe silently and fluently. Because the way he talks to me at the moment, I swear I saw something shine through his eyes saying "How I miss you and its great to see you again". It was the very precious moments. It feels like forever cause I even said that he is perfect than any guy I ever met after I met him.

It's shocking for me cause when I saw a hot guy, my body will be electrocuted and gone insane. But after I saw him at that time, I thought about him after I saw a cute guy walked pass by me. Where does that came from? It's been months since I met him. And I still can't forget how it turned out to be. And the moment I first saw him that afternoon, Im still experiencing it now as my heart still feel so harmony and I breathe silently and fluently. Cause that, ladies and gents, I only feel that way if he is in front on me and gaze upon my eyes.

What's going on? you miserable girl....

I don't remember the last time a guy ever say " I love you " to me. 3 months ago? Or maybe 5 months. Completely ahead of me. This had crossed my mind as my best girlfriend just broke her heart by her own stupid action. When I listened to what she'd expressed, it's like I'm looking at a mirror. My own reflection since I broke my own heart by mistakenly fall inlove with a wrong guy. A guy I thought meant forever to me. I sat there and saw her sorrow as she talked about what happened. Oh my I felt her pain.

Let bygones be bygones. That's my new motto. Life as single lady, written in my relationship status is one hell of a life. Yeah ofcourse there's been ups and down but I manage to step back up. I admit that I wouldn't be this happy if there's no "MONEY". There's go my middle finger for those who said "money can't buy happiness". I didn't realize shopping can bring the tears of pain. For these past months I spoiled myself with lots of beauty care and new clothes and such. Yeah I feel the pain now as all the money is sadly, gone. Hahahaha. But that's life right? That urges me to work. Yes I work to spoil myself with lots of money. Wow that sounds extremely terrible. 

Above all, I feel great. I'd never feel better. By feeling better, what it means that in my life at this moment is less drama, less stress, less problems and more laughter, more crazy throughout the night, more  enjoying the little things in life. My friend once told me, "try to set yourself as priority of your own happiness. Don't depend on others. Make you as the source of your own laughter". And I did :) But how Syafinaz Zamry? Well, by forgiving yourself for what's happened. And somehow I manage to set myself free. Look how happy I sound, writing this blog while smile like a stinky donkey. Hahahaha

I'm currently on a mission right now. Waiting for a miracle to happen. You see, I was searching for new songs to put in my iPod. So I decided to search in the Top 30 at FlyFm. My eyes were caught by this song called "Love is on the radio" by Mcfly. So I opened it and I heard it. Nothing special at first. The I looked at the related videos. From the same band, singing "Love is Easy". I find it very familiar so I clicked and it was the best decision I'd made. Thats how I met Danny Jones. The lead singer in the band. Now my mission is, to mention him at twitter, everyday until he replies. This is a long term mission so I must come up with a good strategy and a lot of patience.

Because, just this morning I drove to Polytechnic. It became a habit of mine to drive at 7.30am every weekdays to Polytechnic. But this time I drive the car instead of my bike which happens to be my permanent transportation there. Anyways, by using this opportunity, I sang in the car as loud as I can. Singing Mcfly songs. As my mission just started last 2 days, I mentioned him at twitter "Start my day by listening to 'I tagged Danny Jones's twitter name' songs really brighten things up". I posted it. Few minutes later I'm scrolling my timeline, I saw the tweet I tweeted, above it was Danny Jones's tweet. a minute ahead of mine, he tweeted his. I swear I want to cry as he basically ignore my tweet that I mentioned him. Damn.. hahahahaha. But, patience is a virtue. I must continue mention him!!  

My girlfriend now is in deep pain. Wait wait. she is my BESTFRIEND. Not my "girlfriend". Im no lesbian okayy.. That's not why I'm still single. Hahaha. Well, this afternoon she took me to Space U8 to buy my favorite chocolate blog there. As we sat in her car, talking about herself and how regret she is for what she'd done. As a bestfriend, I feel sad though to see her like that. So I talked bout myself and how things work so well for me as my last breakup was a disaster. And she asked me how was Amir, a guy I liked and us currently is in the "unknown relationship status". Its such a long story but in the end I said " No matter what happens, I still like 'him' and will always wait for him eventhough from what I see now, our future together is just a blank canvas with no idea yet to be written. Who is 'him'? Lets keep it private. We don't know 'him' might reading this now!! ;)