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Friday, January 3, 2014

Changed the perspective completely -.-

Okay, what a girl really wants? A nice presents? Sweet texts every morning from love ones? Yes exactly. Mature or immature, that is what girl wants. The thing that shows a girl's point of view is how she overcome that feeling. The feeling of longing for the same smile appears everyday for the rest of her lives.
My point of view changed since I had my first heartbreak from a boy who I think is not even prepare of going in a serious relationship. A girl's brain functioned so well they think too much leads to the uncertainty of solutions. Here is where the long term, short term exist by mixing the ego. Like Johnny Depp's quote " the problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude towards the problem ". Some cut their wrist and gone crazy, some move on and live a more happy life, some wait for the guy to come back. But what does change a girl's point of view? In reflecting her attitude in becoming a woman?

In my perspective, the answer is bored. Not 'I don't know what I'm doing' kind of bored. But bored in being wasted by a boy who doesn't feel shit. Once a girl gets tired of the situation and stick to that feeling, she has change her point of view in becoming a woman with mature thoughts. Yes I am saying 'cute, depending one another without involving others, everyday meet, I love you so much till I puke' all those bullshits couples are immature. Face it, I bet when your couple reply 10 minutes late, you went all crazy. Both boys and girls. Twitter in fact, the word 'mention' for couples are 'cheating'. I didn't make this all up. I state this fact based on experience where I was still stupid and blind enough to waste my time falling in love  instead of focus studying and experience that in marriage.

Everyone deserves a second chance. The second chance are always the wisest. For the past days I thought I didn't receive a second chance from my ex in wanting him back. But now I realize that I will receive my second chance by myself. In changing myself and do the right things with less mistakes that I had done before when I meet the one in marriage :) That is my point of view.
That's isn't fair for a lady, to experience a heartbreak just to wake up to reality. Either through relationships with family or friends or boyfriend/girlfriend. It's just not fair. That's why everytime I look at those poor innocent girls with a boyfriend with a whisper of "goodluck.." to them in my head and think how will they overcome the suffer they'll face. I pity them. Really. Because it does hurts like hell.

I feel so lost. But I bounce back with such courage by ignoring him completely. I can't tell you how. It's just from my perspective. Maybe it'll offended some of guys out there and maybe you girls get the wrong idea. But what matters is my point of view saved me from getting fooled again. It also shows my maturity as before I was the most naif girl. And now I overcome my problems and look at me now. Unmarked by wounds, enjoying every moment in my life that I have wasted before. I'm happier than I was :)

What my perspective about love? Well, people frequently mistaken about what love is. It's different depends on a people's perspective. And mine? Well love comfort us. They comes and hardly go. So why wasting love when we're not ready for it instead of spending it with the one who know what he is fighting for?
Dark Horse by Katy Perry. A song reflects my perspective towards love. Here's a thing about love. It hurts us, comfort us, makes us feel safe and secure, changes our point of view towards a person. But no one knows that love puts us in a situation to test us whether we are mature enough to survive the perfect storm. The beauty of it, is that if we fail, we can bounce back and try it one more time whenever we're ready. Like myself, I failed in my first love. I'm not mature enough to survive it. But I know love will come again. And I'll accept it whenever I'm ready and spend every moment of it with joy :)

MUAAHHH ^.-

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