I couldn't describe the feeling when I sit back and just gaze at your face without you looking back. It's like the sound of the waves when it's humming? Or dancing to your favorite song without the melody, hearing each beat and words in your heart. I just don't know how to describe it. Everything with you is soothing. Like a cup of coffee in the morning, listening to backstreet boys or n'sync during study break, afternoon nap while its pouring outside. You've become every man I hoped I would meet. A stranger in a bookstore, choosing a book by my favorite author, just to add to the collection. A friend that I laid beside with at the beach gazing the stars. A lover holding my hand whilst pressing his cheek next to mine while watching a movie in a cinema. A boyfriend that I can hangout with at my home whilst my mom is making lunch. A man that I brought home to see my parents. The list goes on and on.
The longer I stare at you, the stronger it feels. The magnet to your heart, that you've given me. The purity of it. I've never felt so modest before. I worshiped you and yet you're the one that kneeled and kissed my toes as I cried for your mistakes. I love you so much and yet you've never failed to say it out loud even when we're arguing. I fantasize only you and yet you tried to make me feel we're no longer in a long distance relationship. I adore your laugh and yet you still call me on your busy day to just let me hear it. The list goes on and on.
We struggled for the first five month. Our lack of experience and the long distance relationship really did hit us right in the face. But I'm proud to say that your patience and my respect, our love had sowed every scar we had made to each other, our passion and craziness towards another made the wounds go away. Even when the past haunts you, I'm willing to forgive even when it involves another heart, that you once loved. I guess your love for me is much stronger, I do think that's the reason we both stayed. Plus the way you apologize is quite spectacular, with the fireworks and the pizza with my two little sisters beside the beach. I mean.... How romantic and awesome is that!
All I see is future with you. Because it gets better, it gets stronger. I can't live my life without you. You're a part of me, you're in me. I love you. I did so many things with you. You took the little things and turned it into a memory that a girl holds forever. You once took my hand and we slow dance with no music when no ones looking. Can you imagine when we're married? I can't, but I know it's gonna be amazing because that is how I feel whenever you're around. I feel special.
Everything with you is so suddenly beautiful. And now you're asking for my hand, wanting to bring your family to meet mine to propose. Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?
