I'm proud to be a Insurance student. I'm in love with Risk Management subject as I scored A grade in my final examination for my second semester. Even though risk management is my expertise, it can't take me to 4 flat results. My second semester is the most tragic one because 3/4 of the subjects involves mathematics. I HATE MATHEMATICS. Results were out. And I was devastated by it as my grade went down sharply. I'm just thankful I'm still above 3 pointer. I was lucky.
When you got to the situation where it is under your command, you have to sail with it. Because it's your ship. I sank myself by ignoring what's bothering me and focus on what's not. Now it's my price to pay.
I have to score with flying colors for my third semester. As all of the subjects involves Insurance topic but what about fourth semester? Fifth? Sixth? My favorite chef and celebrity once said " It's not how you start, it's how you finish ". And I want to finish strong.
Situation is a wide thing. Could be a crisis or something you can easily handle. I'm going through my short semester right now where I have only 5 weeks to bare. You can say it's easy and exciting because somehow Saturdays and Sundays comes so fast and I only have to bare 5 of them each to finish my short semester. You're wrong. 3 weeks period of time for 1 assignment has shorten to only 2 day. Today the lecturer gives assignment, tomorrow pass them up. Well I can bare with that because the subjects aren't that hard. Just full of presentations and paper work. But right now my class is handling an event for our Soft Skills final project. We gather as a team of event organizers and organize the event. I was excited when the lecturer wants a volunteer for the leader. I wish I could reach my hand up and commit suicide. But they chose my close friend to pick up the mess. And she is struggling with it. I offer myself as her assistant and she accepted.
What a chaos. Lots of decisions to be made and its up to her what's the answer going to be. Our lecturer is a zit in our ass. So annoying and her desire is like a bucket list. So much to say but so little opportunity to do. Rejected what I had offer because it wasn't right for her eventhough she said its all up to me because its my event not hers. Well, I guess she's sharing my mirror of leadership.
When a situation like that, it's not your ship to sail. But eventually you'll fall if the leader fails. I love her, the lead organizer. But some of her decisions I find so difficult to carry. Although I advice her so many times on whats right. But she kept doing childish mistakes. Well, its not my ship to sail.
It's hard when you know you can do something about it but you can't because you have no power. Like the event and my family's problems. I wish I could say to my dad to let them go. It's not your responsibility anymore. But I can't. Because my selfishness can't beat his generosity towards his family. I have lots to say but no voice to speak. What a shame.
I will always be scared against my father. He will always get one answer from me. No suggestions or second thought. I always support him and say yes. Eventhough there are times I disagree with him for his decisions. But what can I say? really...
In the end, we all have our own feelings. My friend would think of the events right now and think otherwise. Or my dad will try and find solutions to get rid of his kindness and fight for his rights. In the end, you'll just here from my side of view. And that will never be fair.
Why can't you go and ask my dad what's really happened? Or standby a tissue for my friend there when you listen to what she'd say? Why not? Because you trust me so much? Never do that!.. please. It's not fair for the other party. Like my last breakup. His friends were once my friends. But now all of them only hear from his point of view for what happened to us and get to the conclusion without seeing me. Among all of his friends, only one confront to me and asked what really happened. And that is my best friend. I was crushed really by my ex's answer. No wonder he became my ex. And I'm amazed how stupid of his friends for believing such lies. You don't want to be like them, don't you?
Situations takes us to many different places. It's up to us to stuck between those situations or find a way out and picture out the answer. I'll bare the consequences of the event and I'll lay low and let dad decide whats best. My ex? Well I already got out from those bullshits area.
