It's my second week of Trial SPM. I know I am not a straight A's student because of my weaknesses in answering the questions. What I meant was my answering techniques. My spelling needs corrections, my hand writing is too small and neat. It makes the teacher's expectation is low towards me. I really need to change that and I only got 62 days left for the big month. There is a lot to do and a limited time. I know I can't do any mistakes anymore and stop spoiling myself. I have to.
When I took my History exam this morning, for paper one I kinda nailed it :) But for paper two, dreadful moment I tell you. I haven't study a thing the day before and I found out that my friend has a spot question. And she told everyone but me. Of course I got mad but I thought, that's a life circle and I have to deal with it but the nervousness absorbs me. What I did was pray to Allah swt. I had nothing to do left. But miracle came as the teacher asked me to switch place with my friend at the back. As just I collect my things and turned back, my friend that I switched places with is sitting next to him. What a surprise. I thank you to Allah swt. for those opportunity because I find peace when I am with him.
And so, I focused. Open the papers, ohh damn!!!! I don't know the answers. Thank you to Allah swt. again for the presence of my closest person in class sat near me. He and his friend helped me with those two question. Okay fine I cheated. What? I already told my mom kayy. Hihi ^^ But that was the only thing I cheated. The rest I did it myself and I did helped them back. I'm innocent ^^
But then again my weaknesses in answering techniques. My teacher read my answers and he shook his head saying that is major bullshit. I smiled and copied his actions. Hihi. Okay what am I supposed to do? Cry? It's a big lesson for me. Next time I have to make it right. I have to.
I have four papers left. What is sadden is that science, economi and perdagangan is in the same week on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Damn!!! Nice -.-
This is my sign of struggle. I can't spoil myself anymore. I have to work hard to achieve success. I have to. And I know, only Allah swt. can help me and myself.
I just wish I won't go nuts and shock weeks before the big month.
When I took my History exam this morning, for paper one I kinda nailed it :) But for paper two, dreadful moment I tell you. I haven't study a thing the day before and I found out that my friend has a spot question. And she told everyone but me. Of course I got mad but I thought, that's a life circle and I have to deal with it but the nervousness absorbs me. What I did was pray to Allah swt. I had nothing to do left. But miracle came as the teacher asked me to switch place with my friend at the back. As just I collect my things and turned back, my friend that I switched places with is sitting next to him. What a surprise. I thank you to Allah swt. for those opportunity because I find peace when I am with him.
And so, I focused. Open the papers, ohh damn!!!! I don't know the answers. Thank you to Allah swt. again for the presence of my closest person in class sat near me. He and his friend helped me with those two question. Okay fine I cheated. What? I already told my mom kayy. Hihi ^^ But that was the only thing I cheated. The rest I did it myself and I did helped them back. I'm innocent ^^
But then again my weaknesses in answering techniques. My teacher read my answers and he shook his head saying that is major bullshit. I smiled and copied his actions. Hihi. Okay what am I supposed to do? Cry? It's a big lesson for me. Next time I have to make it right. I have to.
I have four papers left. What is sadden is that science, economi and perdagangan is in the same week on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Damn!!! Nice -.-
This is my sign of struggle. I can't spoil myself anymore. I have to work hard to achieve success. I have to. And I know, only Allah swt. can help me and myself.
I just wish I won't go nuts and shock weeks before the big month.
