I was born in 21 August 1995. In a car where my mum suffered enough, I laid on my mother's chest while my grandfather drove us to the hospital where our umbilical cord still attached. She waited for 45 minutes for a doctor to end her misery. I suffered a bad fever at the age of 2 weeks and now I am perfectly healthy. At the age of 6 and below, my family move place to place. Because dad was unemployed and mom worked as a waitress at grandpa's restaurant to support her 3 young girl's. At the age of 7 and above, we stayed at Labuan, Sabah where our lives turns upside down. We had our vacation every month with resorts and big pools. It was a glory. A huge tremendous beautiful moment. But I was very little to notice the black spots in our picture.
At the age of 12, I moved to Bukit Jelutong, Shah alam. Lived there for three years. The first place I ever be friend with a girl, who I chose to be my closest, Sharmine. At the age of 15, I moved to Bandar Tasik Puteri, Rawang. Where I suffered enough. But I have been saved by my one true love, Anas that is now long gone. He said to me once "Be cruel sometimes, throw your heart away when it alerts a sign of a broken heart, be kind to someone who is kind to you and don't ever listen to what your enemy says". Those words effected me till now, where I was called "the no hearted girl". People talked about me behind my back and the whole school hates me for Allah's gift of my facial and physical appearance. 2 years of survival. But that school did finally punched me down when my bestfriend Zuraidah, ignored me and be friends with another
At this current age, I moved to Bukit Jelutong back, crave for escape from that treacherous school. Moved at December 2011. A year where I call Transformation year. Regret for all the mistakes I'd made and all the people I left. January, where I was still fresh in this area, coupled with some random guy I don't even know his last name. February, try to make a change. Where I coupled with a bad boys with a sweet heart that turns out to be so vary, the sweet heart is actually a sweet words that he used to set a trapped. Also where I had a huge fight with mom and disobeyed her will for something I want as a teenager. March, met a guy whom I call Edward. The candle to my heart and the savior to my sorrow. Broke up with Wolfy because of mother. The same month where I find Bukit Jelutong was and still now a 70% match as Bandar Tasik Puteri. What is different is that this people talk behind my back silently without disturbing my ears. For that, I bow with respect.
April, had a conflict with Edward until June. Where the school thinks Im a whore that waits for a service from Romeo. His facial appearance leads to a nickname of a Romeo in school. Me? They thought Im a "Minah Rempit" because my last school was in Rawang though I don't even own a bike. Mother forced her daughter to wear Tudung where I disagree for a forever wear because of my social life that had became a usual thing for me. So its hard for me to change in sudden. I disputed. July, crashed to a single world. Focusing on SPM. Tried to be more friendly with my classmates. For 11 years I schooled, none of them gave me a family in class. So since its my last year, I want to make a difference.
Current, August. Happy for whom I am now, single and not available. Joined two gatherings with my classmates, became close friends with my two crazy entertainer in class. Not being sociable outside class. Afraid of getting known. Studying hard enough for my SPM. Bought a beautiful Baju Kurung for Raya. Having a crush in class where I can put a smile on my face before I sees his. Like what Afiq said "your mood changes according to his appearance. If he is here, you're hyper as heaven can be. If he isn't, hard to see a little sincere smile on your face".
First, I collect three most wonderful yet trustworthy close friends that I won't forget. Second, I am mature enough to not being fooled by love. Third, I have my own family in school. Fourth, I have my crush that has become the state of my heart. Fifth, Im facing no more trouble. Sixth, I finally can let Afiq go from his responsibility and my lust of him always stay next to me. Seventh, I finally felt free by letting Afiq free. No worries on how his girlfriend would feel and how I felt so terrible. Eighth, I am better now.
