I woke up.

I have one teacher in school that surprise me so much. Her ways of thinking amazed me. Balqis said that if I tell her my problems and she respond, tears might fall from my desolate eyes. Well if she teach at my old school in Rawang. She'll be busy all the time advising the students. They might have to take number in turn. But I've never go to her and speak. But her ways of finding the truth got me ruin the secret. I dont mind her reading me. Im just glad she never ask me about my problems. Problems... Yeahh. I used to be a loner. Eventhough boyf is out of number, Im still a loner. Actions speak louder than words right? Well boys never captured it right. They just smile and go dumb all of the sudden after hearing me say sweet words or I LOVE YOU to them. Wait, hear?? No. Reading me say.. What a dumbo. Sweet words in text message is all it takes to. They're not awake yet. Awake to know the real world's core. But there is some of them woke up. That is the person to embrace don't-care attitude in them. People never miss chance in gossiping. I don't know whats the point to gossip really, Like I said, they're still asleep. I just wanna come towards them and said whats the point of talking behind someone's back? Did you get medal for it? Straight A's maybe? But whats the point really? Im not a bitch like them. That don't-care attitude really hug my spirit tight :).Gossip?? they talk bad things behind my back. Why? Because they dont have the balls to admit. Like I said, they're still asleep ^^

I LOVE YOU, FOREVER, TILL THE END.. Words I never believed in. I did two month ago. Why I didnt believe it now?
I thought me leavin that cruel school and came back to my old school is a new beginning of escape from bitches.. But, like I said, they're still asleep. Took away my love. Eventhough he still loves me and text me, I cant feel it anymore. I cant explain why, But through that 2 month, I felt stronger. But, a broken friendship may be soldered but will never be sound. There goes the new me walking towards BJ.

I got hit real hard this year. Obstacle is one thing, Broken hearted is another. They took my happiness. He took my heart. Sympathy? yes I have those. Loyal and trust? Sorry I cant find it in my dictionary. Because somehow I woke up.

The Guy.

He was just a guy in my class. A guy that I find nothing special on. Well it was. Now? He is something special beneath my heart. His ways of laughing that reflected mine. His smile touched my soul. He is no popular or important to people. But somehow he become important to me. Starting from then, I kinda like him a lil :) . But love for me is just a painted flower in canvas of life. It stays there and never blossom. I know my heart for him will go no where as Im stuck here in the teenage world. And for him liking me is just a snowman in a summer. But his appearance, attitude makes my heart grow fonder. He always tease me everytime in class. How can I stop liking him? But him teasing me, I know deep down in my heart, I like it. But this one day, my friend ask him if he like me or not. I was just there with them. And he said no. Adding some words that describe how impossible for it to be true. My heart suddenly went down. Cry? no im not a baby. Scream? no I dont want to be crazy. Silent? yes that is all I can do. I dont think he knows I like him. He probably like my friend in class. I caught him looking at her a thousand times. But she said Im just so inlove till I got jealous of him checking on another girl. Well speaking of another girl, he have one. But they seem to be close and not a couple. I dont know wether he still like her or not but for sure. I hate them both cuddling at the canteen.

The way he treat me and the way we laugh is just something bright for me to happen in one day. Till my emotion become so weak I think I had shown my heart to him. And he somehow shocked and stayed away from me. Why he would do that? Does he like me or like me just a friend so that he can tease everyday? Or he is still loyal to his ex? I slowly thinks Im a kite without an owner.

But my friend here, well she is expert in love as she goals it many times. She said that we like each other. But the obstacles facing him makes him think that this is not the right time to play with love. So he spend all his time he have to tease me. Cruel?? yeahh. but for me, please Fifi, dont ever stop :)

Yes I agree.

I used to wear shirts, jeans and sneaker. Free hair with a lil touch up on my face. Eye liner and lil powder. Sometimes with snowcap or a cap on my head. With a leather jacket. My style? Simple and cool :)

She used to wear a dress-like shirt, skinny and high heels. Free hair with fringe and eye liner. Love to put lots of accesories. more like a barbie korean kinda style.

People always say we are alike. But i disagree. I hate barbie and korean. She thinks leather jackets are lame. I think high heels is painful. She thinks sneakers is freaky. Why people said we are the same? I love playing with my hair. She never touch it so it stay still. I mean are you blind??

But with our new look. Yes. We are same !! My god. I cant tell which one are me. Haha. but she still wear high heels and lots of accesories. Me?? sneakers and jeans :) But our face, DAMN! Look alike. But she is wayy prettier than me. Thats for sure.

I like our new looks. Hope we are blessed by Allah s.w.t :)