As a wife, silence is golden. Silence is preferable. It is the key to a successful marriage. I find my personality in favor of that behaviour. As an introvert, I find silence is better than words told only to be forgotten or worse, ignored. But as a woman, there's so much she can take. I can only pray that her screaming heart is burning all her sins away. She always marry a wild spirit. But a young spirit, yet to learn, learning by mistakes. How much mistake can she take? For all she does is consume consume consume. All he did was ignore, deny and forget all her sorrows, wishing she'd understand him, respect him, forgive him, accept him.
This man doesn't really deserve her love. He constantly question it. How long can he keep questioning her love? Comparing his with hers is the worst thing he can do. For all he does is hurt her with insecurities and lies, expect her to understand and accept that that is how he love. But he cannot accept her wanting a change, a better love. His love is toxic. His love is one-sided. His love is a reflection of his darken heart. But he is the sole provider, for all woman who fell for his love is often soft and weak. Who loves for the afterlife because there's no point in fighting for true love in this world. She's forced to understand, so she respects then she accept.
Manipulation in marriage is a poison. She's afraid to face the world alone as she always depended on him. She's weak, fragile and sad. She's a sad human being forced to raise children in a sad, pretended household. A gift seems to cheer her up. But Allah swt kept giving her hints of lies that her husband kept. All she did was silenced. I wish she kept it silenced.
Allah swt teaches us to not be dependent to a person in this world. Only to Him. We did, we tried, but we are made weak. Syaitan constantly whispering in our ear to neglect that feeling. She is made weaker than him. How can she become strong if he is the burden she was given? He was supposed to guide her, respect her, love her, be honest with her. But all he ever wants to do with her is drain her and question her love when she raises doubts.
That doubt is the key to a long lasting marriage, a happy marriage. Treated as doubt, it will become one. Treated it as a solution, she's all yours. Thats what she does, everyday. Why doubt her? This man doesn't deserve her. Why did she stay? why did she trapped herself in this manipulated life?
