But that is the longest loyalty I ever committed towards love. Maybe as the age passes by we start to realize how awesome being a little kid is.
Some people say I'm a player. Where I used to date more than 3 boys at once when I was just 12 years old. Or never be single for more than 2 month when I was 16 years old and below. People kept remembering their longest commitment in relationship while I only remember I used to be single for only 2 months and 2 hours is the shortest. It's not that I love playing tricks on you boys its just I'm still young and dumb. I don't even wear makeup on my face at that time and you want me to be mature and lady-like? Bitch please..
I keep welcoming them into my heart and run away whenever I just had enough without true explanation. And that shows how immature I am and it really reflect my age doesn't it? I just don't know what to say!
The popular reason I told them whenever I wanna break up is:
My mom doesn't like you
You deserve better
For the first month it's a dream come true. The first 3 months it's like "why I'm still here?". And then there goes my acting. If Hollywood notice how good I am, I'll be receiving awards every year.
Any guy I know, I find attractive, I date. Like Harry Styles once said when he was 20 years old:
" I have few friends that are girls... and I date every one of them"
But guy's brain is 2 years younger than girl's that is same age as them. So I understand why he react to relationship. Because I so too. But despite all those shitty relationship, there'll be one that hits you like a truck and make you never say yes again. That truck hit me last year and look at me now! Single and doens't give a fuck :)
It makes you think deeper that reflects your deepest wound in your ruined heart. It makes you stronger every minute you try to accept the fact that he left you and be done with it.
After changing my way of dating, I don't date anymore. Boys are jerk! Men is hard to find. I entertain my heart and soul by listening to One Direction and be a true directioner. I'm 1D AF! hahahaha. I'll be lying if I say I don't date or like someone for the time being. Proof?? Right now I like my 42 year old boss and I think I need to back off a little. That's beyond disgusting and inapproriate.
My guy friends used to say its the way I flirt that make boys think I'm available. But that just the way I role. I'm just gentle, polite, funny, like to laugh kinda bitch. But as the time goes by, I start to control how I act to men. Don't want to send the wrong message now..
But there's also guys who's too dumb to realize. If I say no, they say maybe. If I say maybe, they say yes definitely! But thank god wise men created sarcasm. It has become my middle name.
My respond towards men tend to fade. Day by day my sarcastic takes control in my social life. And I love it :) (keeps the jerk away ^^)
But there's time where I ignore completely if they're too dumb to realize and see. As wise man anonymous once said, "stupid people CARE, strong people FORGIVE, intelligent people IGNORE".
So if you really too dumb to still want me, just don't
Thanks for reading :)
