This Girl,

This Girl, She is living a life full of secure and love from her family. She has a brother and sister who willing to light up her sorrow. Her mom and dad who accompany her to the right path. And Allah swt guide her and her family to the way. It was perfect. So perfect. Until, 

He has a messy hair, wear specs while studying, handsome and white skin color, has a slim body-type and tall. She fall for him deeply. His ways of laughing and attitude towards her is simply beautiful. He starting to notice her. They became close. Closer than ever. Until his friends start to notice his weird attitude in treating her in a special way. And this words popped out and been heard by him "do you like her?" For her, the day was beautiful. The next day, she cant wait for her new day with him again. But he changed. He didnt look at her at all. He became the Stranger to her. She wondered why. "Maybe he has problems of his own i think" Positive. That's what kept her strong. 

2 and a half years she thought positively. His ways towards her never change. You see, I admire this girl. How often you find a girl who is willing to think positive towards a boy who became her hero and the next day vanished. Its like getting a beautiful dream that comes only in a dream. And there I was, appeared in her life. I taught her a lot. About dealing with sadness and pain. I love her just the way she is. She is funny. Thoughtful, kind and generous, not to mention crazy? The craziest person I have ever known! But she never let me down or not to laugh in one day. And seeing her like this, really brought my spirit up. Because of her, I got my crush in hand. I waited. 

"Im giving up" Words cant describe how let down I am. Those words came from her really shocked me. Why? How? Why??? Yes it is killing her. I could kill him too just to let him taste the fire. But why? After 2 and a half years hoping and waiting.. Come on laaa he didnt even know the truth. 

I respect her decision no matter what. And his attitude of keep coming back never stop. He came again to tease her like always. He have the chance to just leave but he didnt. She said he hate to ever like her. But why when he had a chance to just go, he didnt do it. He keeps coming back... So now let me ask you, Girl. Why? 

I want you to feel your heart and ask your sorrow, what should I do? and let me  know.

Please,

The war in Gaza, Palestine are happening now. I know I can't stand up and fight physically, but I hope you all support me, fight mentally.

This war is not about Muslims, Jews, Christians, Buddhist, Hindus, Atheist nor other religions. It's about killing innocent people, kids, oldies, ladies especially pregnant mothers. Imagine if one of them is actually you. 

Put yourself in that situation and I bet you will beg for the whole world to help you with prays and sympathies. I speak up as a HUMAN BEING from my religion, Islam. And I want people around the world to fight this war with all of our prays.

You might not be a Muslim, but you are a human being will full of care towards children, mothers, who are killed and bombed, burn with no mercy. We might not have modern weapons, but we have the strength to stand together to fight this war with our prayers. Stand up, do your prayers no matter what your religion is. 

Stand up. Prove to the world you still have those humanity in you. Care towards the poor children and mothers, soldiers who died fight for survival. Why is it so hard? You just have to stand up and pray.

Sincerely, 
A girl with faith in humanity.

Week 1, done.

Bahasa Malaysia, English, Sejarah, Mathematics.

Done those four subject. My shoulders gets lighter everytime I walked away from the examination room. This week is the most tragic week. I wept, laugh, panic, exhausted, emotional, hesitated a lot. Okay look. I realized. I realize that life isnt easy as it seems. I think alot. What will my future would be or what will I do. Maybe life in organized mode isnt working for me. I fought. I stayed away from remembering what happened in the past. Because what's the use of crying over a spilt milk?

I am still fragile. I don't know what to say anymore.