Shut my self up :)

You are just a nightmare in my dreams. Been sleeping for two years and haunted by your shadows. First it was all okay. Seen a little devil in you but I ignored my bad thoughts of you because I loved you. But then, I saw it. And you were cruel and still are. I solved all your problems. Never complained about it. But you just ripped me to pieces. The school fucked me for no acceptable reasons and I still came to school. But you, because of you, I'd never came to school after final exams. You throw away my spirit. 

And you. I loved you with all my heart. I understand you. Followed your will. But one long distance separation between us, you dropped us down. Thinking there is no way out. No future waiting for us. I got confused, stressed out. And decided to leave you because your concern was to much for me to handle. You think that this is the end. Dude, do you know what " future " means? Can't you just chill out and wait. Its not my will to leave and be far from your distance. I am under a parental care. 

I understand you guys. But what did I receive from you? Now I decided that I'll shut my self up when it comes to you. Blocked you from seeing your updates. Turning from staring to just take a peek. So that my heart wont hurt once more. And this is the best decision I've ever made.