When you think of all the years passed by, after all those hatred and distress. Lesson learned. Somehow you manage to put your feet on the ground and dance the night away. New friends new lovers. Everything that you ever dreamed of, disappear when you wake up. Just how fast the night changes. People would say 'life is full of ups and downs'. But did you ever embrace those moments of redemption and take a chance to be thankful for whoever stood next to you still? Or you just blaming human nature to forget what brings you up and plan revenge on what brings you down? What a life.
When I got accepted to pursue my diploma in Polytechnic Shah Alam, I feel devastated because my goal was to go so far from home to be on my own, like a silly adolescence girl. But looking back, I wonder how grateful I am to come home from class everyday and see my mother's face, taste my mother's cooking, seeing my dad's return from work. How sucks would it be if I miss all that. Call me old fashioned but, that's what makes my day even more brighter. Not only that, I got the chance to avoid one thing I found unimaginably annoying, roommates. One of my classmates, lived here with her boyfriend. Sharing everything but clothes they wear to class, a group of girls lived in front of a dozens of boys's apartment where they could kiss and make out just by knocking on their door. A bitch who covers only her breast and lady parts with expensive clothes bought at Mango to impress her boyfriend whilst on the weekend, went home to her parents house like a true Muslimah as she always is at home before she moved.
Looking at these girls makes me sick and thankful I got to say I have curfew to avoid late night parties and dates. Cruel world. But one thing I prayed for them everyday that they realize for how much trouble they got into, the first person they'll think of is their parents. Surviving college is one thing. Confronting your parents is another. Every time I look at my mother's eyes, I see sympathy and love. Will I still see it when I want to marry because my boyfriend's sperm caught in one of my eggs? Will my dad be proud when I said I need extra money to repeat my paper as a result of temporary entertainment? Why do I even bother to tell them in the first place?
Being a good daughter is my top priority. My mom wants me to not be a silly beautiful girl, wandering of with the wrong man. My dad wants me to succeed so that I can take care of myself when my husband decided to go MIA. Somehow in everything I see, I see them waving at me, at the end of the road. Expecting greatness in the most naive way. I feel like I owe them. For they own me.
There you go. You'd aware on what I was mumbling about for the last 10 minutes reading this stupid innocent post. Friends are replaceable, lover is only a shadow of your greatness. But family.. Family is the one thing you don't want to miss because God has decided not to put a rewind button. Soon we'll be on our own so why should you speed up the passe and leave them? A boy I met, neglect his mother just because he decided to "blame" his father's for cheating. You called that blame? Leaving everything behind and start a life in a pet shop seems to be a great idea huh? What a life. A friend of mine kept saying he's adopted every time he felt desolate whilst his parents busy working to make extra money for a trip to Paris next month for the whole family while I enjoy watching TV with family members and cherish those family dinner at our favorite western restaurant near Cheras where we used to live at one of the flats that cost RM500 per month for rental, feeling grateful as ever.
Think about it ladies and gents. Who will accept you at your worst and celebrate at your best? If not your family. The ones that gave you the world and be there when you caught your last breath.
